Uncleared doubts

So, im just wondering.. Why are you always so busy texting ppl? :/

Lols.

Did super badly for prelims even though i studied really hard this time.. :(

Failed everything except language.. Sigh. How to get good results for olevel with these results?

Really really need to study harder now.. :/

Cause sometimes you're hot and you're cold.

I have simply no idea what to do..

WHAT TO DO? :(

sweet ♥

Just read this, dun stop, it will make a difference.
If only everyone could see this and understand it.

When she stares at your mouth
-Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you
-Grab her and don't let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
-Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet
-Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you
-Give her your attention

When she pulls away
-Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
-Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying
-Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking
-Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared
-Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie
-Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
-Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time
-Reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
-Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you
-she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands
-Hold her's and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you
-Bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
-Keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
-dont look away until she does

When she says it's over
-she still wants you to be hers

When she reposts this bulletin
-she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes

-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

-Let her know she's important.

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
"Whose ass am i kicking,BABY?"

pretty pleaseee

You asked me to face piglet and say hi to him. So i did say actually say hi. How dumb can i get? :x
Then you called me retarded! What is this! Tsktsk! :)
But it was a funn,long convo. :)))




Hope you say yes so we can go study together tmr..
Its always been see first and in the end we stay at home.. :(
Please say yes tmr.. Pretty please~~
So maybe i could ask some poa qns and not stay at home too.. :x




You've got that love that keeps me in a good mood..

Sometimes, it looks like theres a chance and sometimes there isnt..
Confusion strucks me all the time, leaving me with nothing that i can do.. :/

That little piece of hope im holding on to..

Prelims over

Watched Johnny English just now with darren, chun pong, louis, daniel ong, ji hao, cy, whe how, azri.

This movie is hilarious! Cant stop laughing at their craps! HAHA

Johnny english is the best movie ever! (Y)

After that we went home. Theres this shop near old town white coffee that sells cookies/cupcakes/donuts. They look tooooo cute to be eaten. Pretty toooooo! :)

Yays! Finally prelim is over!! I can finally get my sleep back.
All these studying till late at night is tiring me out.

Slept for only 2 hours plus last night. Damn shag now. Probably look like a zombie right now.

But i cant sleep, im afraid i wont be able to sleep again at night. Sigh.

Aching body. Neckache. Headache. Feel like vomitting.

Seriously something is wrong with me. Probably gonna get sick soon. Noooooooooo :(

Prelims over means the nightmare hasnt ended and we are just one step away from olevels.
Cant wait for it to end! :)

Jelousy kills.
Insecurities acting up.
Mixed feelings every single day.

angry

I didnt know im that transparent!

Lovely song isnt it?
Listening to this song makes me cry and it reminds me of memories. :')

Didnt text you at all. Scared i'll interupt you texting ppl..
But at least you called :)


Watched contagion yesterday. Was supposed to watch johnny english but everywhere is full house. Sigh.
Ate dinner at mac and there's ppl dressed up as pooh, chicken little and some star wars guy i think. They are so funny.
They danced to the song party rock anthem. They look cute when they are dancing. Especially the star wars guy. Dancing with his hammer! HAHA.

Was playing with your phone when you are telling me and wc about this movie you watched.
The terrorists were happy to kill themselves. HAHA.
Then suddenly your phone vibrated. My games stopped. And i knew who you were texting. Haha. There goes my game. :( Lol.
So i continued watching the ppl dancing instead.
There were some teenagers dancing, not bad at all. Quite professional! :)




Baby its not just you, you know it hurts me too.
Please dont forget the good days with me.
I believe in us, dont give up on me.
Baby its not just you thats hurting, its me too.

'happy'

PSLE is important, so is Olevels! Both are equally important!!

You are always working and you dont get to see me studying. This doesnt mean i didnt study at all!
Every weekend im supposed to do the chores and and study at the same time.
Do you know how hard it is? Especially when i get itchy whenever i get in contact with dust..

If chores is more important than olevels, then why send me to school? You might as well lock me up at home and i'll do the chores for you everyday.

You worked every weekdays and you are tired. I know. I study everyday. Arent i tired too?
I cant even watch tv for an hour or two. So now watching tv is also a crime? Not doing chores is also a crime too? Unbelievable.

I asked if you could help me do the chores first cause i needa study for prelims.
And you said why you have to help me? Haha, im so damn disappointed in you.
I have to do all the chores and you and her get to watch tv?
And when i watch tv you say im not studying? And when i get lousy results you scold me for not putting more effort?
I study till late at night and woke up looking so sloppy and i get scolded for staying up late to study? Didnt i study to get good results so that you can be proud of me?
I really cant believe all this.

First, you dont allow me to go to church and say its a waste of time and you say i should spend the time to study instead.
Now, doing the chores is more important than studies?
So you think studying is not stressful enough for me and you have to add more stress for me? Thanks alot.



Whenever im scolded, u didnt bother to ask if im okay or maybe even defend me?
In your eyes, im still and always will be the useless, lazy daughter.
Is that why we dont talk at all now? Do u know much effort i try to talk to u but you didnt care.
And its so easy for them to talk to u. The only time when u talk to me is when u needed a drink or something. Am i really that transparent to u?
What have i done wrong? I dont remember doing anything wrong.
Everyday after work, u'll come home and start msning ppl and smile at what the person said.
And if im around u, u'll move away so that im not able to see what ur convo is about.
Are u really talking to other ladies? Sigh.



Nevermind. I shall not care anymore. There's no point caring too.
Im really really very disappointed in you. I cant believe you actually said all these words to me.
Now i realised that you even care about my studies at all. You only care about theirs cause im not a study material.




Sick and tired of everything already.
I dont even feel like i belong to this family at all.

Math paper was horrible. Its sooo extremely hard.. :(

The wind kept blowing at my face, paper and everything! Makes it so difficulty for me to do my paper! :(

Stucked at the first qn already.. And the qns gets harder and harder.. Sigh

I have no idea how am i gonna pass my math.. :(((

The thought of it made me so depressed..

Got stuck outside the house just now for an hour plus :/

So i've got no choice but to go find you.

You look like a small boy. Dont want to lend me your bolster and you hugged it so tightly. Haha. But i still managed to snatched it away from you~ HEHE ;p

This time round, going to your house, everything feels so different.. The last time i went there was during march.. Nothing much change except a few things and going into your room feels so different. It used to be my favourite place but now i feel so weird, awkward and like a stranger to that place.. :/

Wonder if i get to go there again.. :/

Hope i am able to my math paper tmr.. Paper 2 already pulled me down..

Hope tmr's paper will be easier.. :/

Geog paper today was awesome. Thank god what i learnt came out. Poa paper was okay.. Hope i managed to at least get a b4.. :/ Havent been passing poa since like... Hehe

So far everything is okay except my results..

Needa work on them.. Especially math..

Seriously need help in that.. :(

Bored

So ended up not going anywhere today and im seriously bored..
Bored bored bored bored bored

So.. i shall study ss today...

Yamin's house

Woke up early just to memorise ss. Havent touch on geog and i just started ss. Im doom..
Havent touch on poa too.. I slacked too much.. :/

Watched smurf with jun wei, brenda and vighnesh before going to mr yamin's house.
Smurf was smurf-tastic! :) Brenda went to fairprice and bought a smurf. Haha.
It was fuuuuuunnnnnn at mr yamin's house and his house is so niceeeeeeeeeee.
Everyone looked so preettyy/handsomeee too.
Played taboo, xbox/ps3. Mr yamin's wife's cook are superb. Its so smurf-licious~
It was a great bonding session. :)

Going to watch contagion later with cy and wc.
So maybe it'll just be cathay, just acia, home...



Insecurities acting up again and i hate it...

plans

I dont like feeling this way. It just spoils my day everytime.. :(
Its just so hard to control.. I know im not really a fun or exciting person.. :(



Sooo many things not done.. :/
So this week i shall do:
-physics extra sets
-finish memorising ss
-learn poa
-learn geog
-jump jump jump (trying to grooooow)
-try not to feel sad and insecure


Yesterday was fun and you made my day. Watching you and suresh play fifa was fun. You guys were like small kids. Haha! Walking back home together and we talked quite a lot. These small little things just make my day. :)



So far september have been nice.. :)

Happy teachers day to all teachers :)

Happy birthday Miss tan pei ru! :)

Had so much fun today!

Class was more like clubbing then partying~ Haha

Took photos. Laugh like crazy. Busy tearing newspaper into small pieces.

Busy enjoying the day~ :)

Many ex-jvsian came back. Missed them so much! :D

After that went to play bball with lucas and gang then home.

Too many questions in my head..

No idea what are the answers..