'happy'

PSLE is important, so is Olevels! Both are equally important!!

You are always working and you dont get to see me studying. This doesnt mean i didnt study at all!
Every weekend im supposed to do the chores and and study at the same time.
Do you know how hard it is? Especially when i get itchy whenever i get in contact with dust..

If chores is more important than olevels, then why send me to school? You might as well lock me up at home and i'll do the chores for you everyday.

You worked every weekdays and you are tired. I know. I study everyday. Arent i tired too?
I cant even watch tv for an hour or two. So now watching tv is also a crime? Not doing chores is also a crime too? Unbelievable.

I asked if you could help me do the chores first cause i needa study for prelims.
And you said why you have to help me? Haha, im so damn disappointed in you.
I have to do all the chores and you and her get to watch tv?
And when i watch tv you say im not studying? And when i get lousy results you scold me for not putting more effort?
I study till late at night and woke up looking so sloppy and i get scolded for staying up late to study? Didnt i study to get good results so that you can be proud of me?
I really cant believe all this.

First, you dont allow me to go to church and say its a waste of time and you say i should spend the time to study instead.
Now, doing the chores is more important than studies?
So you think studying is not stressful enough for me and you have to add more stress for me? Thanks alot.



Whenever im scolded, u didnt bother to ask if im okay or maybe even defend me?
In your eyes, im still and always will be the useless, lazy daughter.
Is that why we dont talk at all now? Do u know much effort i try to talk to u but you didnt care.
And its so easy for them to talk to u. The only time when u talk to me is when u needed a drink or something. Am i really that transparent to u?
What have i done wrong? I dont remember doing anything wrong.
Everyday after work, u'll come home and start msning ppl and smile at what the person said.
And if im around u, u'll move away so that im not able to see what ur convo is about.
Are u really talking to other ladies? Sigh.



Nevermind. I shall not care anymore. There's no point caring too.
Im really really very disappointed in you. I cant believe you actually said all these words to me.
Now i realised that you even care about my studies at all. You only care about theirs cause im not a study material.




Sick and tired of everything already.
I dont even feel like i belong to this family at all.

Math paper was horrible. Its sooo extremely hard.. :(

The wind kept blowing at my face, paper and everything! Makes it so difficulty for me to do my paper! :(

Stucked at the first qn already.. And the qns gets harder and harder.. Sigh

I have no idea how am i gonna pass my math.. :(((

The thought of it made me so depressed..

Got stuck outside the house just now for an hour plus :/

So i've got no choice but to go find you.

You look like a small boy. Dont want to lend me your bolster and you hugged it so tightly. Haha. But i still managed to snatched it away from you~ HEHE ;p

This time round, going to your house, everything feels so different.. The last time i went there was during march.. Nothing much change except a few things and going into your room feels so different. It used to be my favourite place but now i feel so weird, awkward and like a stranger to that place.. :/

Wonder if i get to go there again.. :/

Hope i am able to my math paper tmr.. Paper 2 already pulled me down..

Hope tmr's paper will be easier.. :/

Geog paper today was awesome. Thank god what i learnt came out. Poa paper was okay.. Hope i managed to at least get a b4.. :/ Havent been passing poa since like... Hehe

So far everything is okay except my results..

Needa work on them.. Especially math..

Seriously need help in that.. :(

Bored

So ended up not going anywhere today and im seriously bored..
Bored bored bored bored bored

So.. i shall study ss today...

Yamin's house

Woke up early just to memorise ss. Havent touch on geog and i just started ss. Im doom..
Havent touch on poa too.. I slacked too much.. :/

Watched smurf with jun wei, brenda and vighnesh before going to mr yamin's house.
Smurf was smurf-tastic! :) Brenda went to fairprice and bought a smurf. Haha.
It was fuuuuuunnnnnn at mr yamin's house and his house is so niceeeeeeeeeee.
Everyone looked so preettyy/handsomeee too.
Played taboo, xbox/ps3. Mr yamin's wife's cook are superb. Its so smurf-licious~
It was a great bonding session. :)

Going to watch contagion later with cy and wc.
So maybe it'll just be cathay, just acia, home...



Insecurities acting up again and i hate it...

plans

I dont like feeling this way. It just spoils my day everytime.. :(
Its just so hard to control.. I know im not really a fun or exciting person.. :(



Sooo many things not done.. :/
So this week i shall do:
-physics extra sets
-finish memorising ss
-learn poa
-learn geog
-jump jump jump (trying to grooooow)
-try not to feel sad and insecure


Yesterday was fun and you made my day. Watching you and suresh play fifa was fun. You guys were like small kids. Haha! Walking back home together and we talked quite a lot. These small little things just make my day. :)



So far september have been nice.. :)

Happy teachers day to all teachers :)

Happy birthday Miss tan pei ru! :)

Had so much fun today!

Class was more like clubbing then partying~ Haha

Took photos. Laugh like crazy. Busy tearing newspaper into small pieces.

Busy enjoying the day~ :)

Many ex-jvsian came back. Missed them so much! :D

After that went to play bball with lucas and gang then home.

Too many questions in my head..

No idea what are the answers..